Wedding shots - Keeran and Sonu

Friends? What friends?

The primary reason why I don't really have a best friend is because they're impossible to find and their a nuisance to maintain a so called "bff" relationship. I have a handful of friends that care deeply about me, talk to me, get with me on a amicable level but it never seems to pass through the ground stage.

Refute all you want but its the truth and you can't hide it. You don't care. You don't bother. You don't give two flying cow shits about me. I am purely here for your amusement. After we all go our different paths, we honestly don't keep in touch. I'm always a second. meaning, I am only a replacement, a back up, a fall back if their friend is not present. I always seem to put my best effort to carry on the relationship but the other person doesn't.

Either it's me or them, my relationships are never secured. Sometimes, we drift, make new bonds, forget the old ones, dwell on, move on, eventually, separating ourselves, distancing each other, or just temporarily forgetting who you are. Whether we like it or not, people inevitably change over time and we can't help that or fix it.

What's broken, stays broken sadly.

When i think about it, it actually costs a lot more trouble to maintain a friendship with a certain person. Making plans, spending quality time together, having late night conversations, being comfortable with each other, and committing loyalty to each other. However, when one small incident that turns into a dramatic shit happens, that's when everything starts to crumbles apart and we grow distant with each other more and more everyday. Feelings such as regret, hate, and envy eats our soul up and we feel as if we were betrayed and abandoned.


How do we know how to carefully choose our fellow friends so that they won't become strangers in the future? Then there's that shocking moment when you find out the true colors of someone you thought wrong. That is what what really grinds my gears:Lying behind one's back is much more worst than telling the truth because I'd rather have someone whose straight upfront than someone who is dishonest. More importantly, time and distance are the two main causes that what really tears friendship apart. When neither one contributes, the friendship withers away and once again, we diffuse, creating new bonds with new people.

Other times, that person is too afraid to step up and tie the knots together so there is no progress in improving the relationship. And most of the times, that person already has a best friend to begin with so whats the point of trying to build close ties with that person if you're just a piece of stinking furniture to them? If one does have the interest to increase their friendshipity with someone, they would actually try, not delaying and waiting on each other on who would make the first move. In this dark, cruel, and corrupted world, it is very hard to find a good friend that will stick with you thick and thin to the end.


To this day, this is why I have grown to be very independent person which is, at times very lonely as a matter of fact, but at the same time, it does show that I can face reality myself without depending on others. I can rely on myself and free myself from disappointments in people. Optimistically speaking, I'd say each person who came into my life and walked out would just mean that their part in my story is over and a new character is introduced as we continually flip the pages. Thats how life goes.

You know what I like about rich kids?

Kids who can get whatever their hearts desire, no matter when or where they are..



because they can have it and because they want it.









EXAMPLE

kid: "OMG mom, i saw the NICEST mercedes!! it wasnt like your silver C230 kompressor benz, or dad's ML500 suv benz, but MOMMY, it was the blue SL500 convertable i ALWAYS wanted, and i just got my lisence too!!"


mom: "i already got it for you, as a 17th birthday present"


kid: "damn straight"

I think Im back.

Hello everyone.

I haven't written in forever. I keep telling myself to blog, but then get sidetracked and/or lose interest.

Yee-haw.

Being a student and able to get through a course without speaking to any fellow students is an art form I believe I have almost perfected.

For those of you pecker heads who are social butterflies and actually enjoy talking to people because they're interesting, you'd best not read my upcoming post.

cs2

used illustrator cs2 + photoshop cs2

Keboringan melanda.

Did a cartoon character of myself ; my trademark pose - 'the peace sign; !

Urge to rant II .

People have uploaded albums worth of pictures on Facebook that all look the same: party scene with drunk girls and sweaty boys. Then there's some kind of lame caption like 'Hot mama!Lolxx' or 'A night out with the HOTTIESSSS ' or something. The pictures are never without alcohol and girls striking poses with their skimpy outfits.

While I am someone who believes in allowing everyone their own creative freedom, putting up pictures of the same old crap is neither creative nor very, how do I say this nicely...modest.

Someone may put up many pictures because they want to share their wonderful experiences with the world, subconsciously I think it's just a tool people use to show off how 'popular' and 'cool' they are. What a wild child this person must be if all they do is frequent clubs and hang out with 'hot mamas' and 'gangstas'.

Wow...don't we all strive to be more like them?

Ermm.Nope, I don't. In fact, I prefer to just not view any pictures at all for fear of running into such 'Dumbass Material' that may insult my intelligence. Because there is no way in hell I want to be someone who puts up 1,000 pictures in a shameless and degrading bid for attention.

Like pfft.

As I opened my Facebook,I saw many condolence comments on my page .I've deleted all of em.Maybe it's just one of my way to deal with my emotions right now.I don't know.Hope no one would be offended.

As I go on exploring this networking web,I came across a status message which really pissed me off.It stated

image and the name of the person above has been blurred out.

Oh okay,I thought the 'dear friend' of mine would actually be my side comforting me instead of typing all these.Wish you were by my side?Why didn't you? Your arse bones were broken?

No wonder I've been getting many phone calls and text messages.

XX: Hey ,heard of it.Be strong.
g3: erm,who's this pls?
XX: It's XX.Heard of the news.XY stated on his/her Facebook status.
g3:Erm okay.*hangs up*

Yay.It has been advertised via Facebook.You people think that I'll be alright by reading those kind of status messages?Like yahhh,I'm alright.Smiling away for the attention I've got.Pfft.To hell.Anyway thanks for the concern.Greatly appreciated.

ps: Dont go off limits just for the sake of a Facebook status message.Stick to your usual 'XY² has just broken a FUK*NG nail!!' or 'XX is what every man dreams of…. and every girl’s nightmare !!!!!!' . True friendship is not only about sharing our thoughts and feelings over the internet but you being there for a friend when she/he really needs you the most.

A day with a stupid keyboard.

I hate it when I make a typo and I do the little "*" to correct it, and I get it wrong again. And then I still get it wrong the next four times.Example:

me: haha yeah sertousu

me: *serousyl

me: *seriouly

me: UGH

me: ******seriouslt

me: UGH ARE YOU JOKING ME?

me: 8seriously

me: Fuih.I took time to type it that time.

me: WHAT THE-- it's an 8 instead of a "*"

*throws keyboard*

*blocks whoever I was talking to*

URGHH....!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The blehh and blehh'er.

A few days ago, I watched this English lesson on the TV Pendidikan channel. It was probably for the primary school kids,but unfortunately I sat and watched till end of the programme. They were speaking with an accent , ala mat salleh while teaching us viewers, about grammar.I couldnt understand what they were teaching :( THEY MADE ME TO FEEL LIKE A DUMB person watching that programme for an hour trying to figure out what they were actually trying to say.Why do they have to make things so complicated?

Now,the history part where 'THEY MADE ME TO FEEL LIKE A DUMB PERSON' comes..

Since small I can never differentiate what is a noun and a verb. I have no idea about grammar rules. By just reading a sentence, I can ‘feel’ if it is wrong or right. By just looking, I can ‘feel’ if the spelling is right or wrong. I can easily remember past tense and present tense but not sure when to use them.

The method of teaching English (or even Bahasa Malaysia) subject evolved so much since errr…30 years ago?

Who are the guilty parties who brought up a generation of Manglish speaking Malaysians? It has to be these too smart alecs who screwed up our future generations. And it could be the parents also.I learnt my almost perfect (I repeat,ALMOSTTTTTT PERFECT) English by just reading, reading, reading.

I read because my mother NEVER told me to. I read because the Government NEVER told me to.Oh wait,they did some campaigns to encourage us to read books,though.But so what?!I ignored all of those campaigns.You seriously think campaigns like that would help,eh..

I started to read when I was 7.I read from Shakespeare to Harold Robbins, Reader’s Digests to some Indian Magazines -I'll get interested to read em by just looking at the celebrities pictures :) and whatever few books my poor school library can offer.

Kids today? Their parents will shove books down their throats as early as…. before they could even er..call em 'mama' or 'papa'. Parents take great pride in showing off their immaculate routine of ‘bedtime story’ . Back then, the only bedtime story I heard from my mother is the home made version of 'patti suttha vadai'.That’s my only bedtime story. I'll post that story soon to share it with ya'all :)

Aightt,I got to go.I think I'm going off topic already,cause at first I ranted on English,then it switched topic to READING and now I'm more interested in sharing my 'patti suttha vadai' story.

G2G

Having English test tomorrow and here I am,still doubting my grammars and etc :( Going to google search for some easy tips on 'HANDLING' em professionally.WUAHHHA.

I do speak TAMIL+MALAY+ENGLISH=TAMANGLISH.Yes I do,just to show people around me that I'm a gempak-languange-mixer-person.HAHHAHA.So yeah,SPEAK TAMANGLISH-LAH!


PS : If you notice any grammar errors on this blog, just keep it to yourself. Thank you. I will ‘feel’ for them and make my own correction.

[Y]elloww,I'm B[L]ACKK..

urge to rant.

currently lifeless :(

Have you watched an Indian movie and wondered why the actors always dancing around the trees ?

:) LOL (:

anyway,they do look cute doing those scenes ...with their facial expressions of course.HAHHHAHAHHA :D :D

basics of Indian movie making are same ..



1.) A hero, A girl & A villain

2.) Hero and girl (the heroin) fall in love and they dance around trees along different countries like Switzerland, Russia, USA etc (even when Hero does not do any work or have no source of earning)

3.) Villain comes in between Hero and Heroin. In 80% of the cases, Heroin is the daughter of the villain.

4.) Fight erupts between Hero and Villain and Hero fires some dialouges like If you have drunk mother’s milk, throw the gun and fight like a man and Villain really throws the gun :\ and fights like a fool, oh.. sorry, I mean like a man .

5.) Hero kills the villain.

6.) Hero and Heroin marry and everyone lived happily ever after.

thats the whole movie story

p/s:if you apply the acts and use the dialogues shown in the movies, where hero impresses the girl by doing some acting or speaking some special dialogues , you will never ever find a single girl who will want to have a friendship with you.

final artwork sem ONE.

super bicycle.

itu basikal,betul betul punyer.

ini pun basikal,lakaran punyer.

aku buat,xder tipu punyerrr .

drawing class,kinda tough :S

cos the bicycle that i lukis'ed above,dilukis dalam masa 30sec.NO JOKE

and that's how the lecturers are training us,kira masaaaa :S

YELPP MEE woi!

PIC of the month :)

Datin Izzati :p

one of my crime buddy in MMU,Cyber.

It's just a luahan hati.

Hmm.Its amazing seeing how the stupidest issue can just bring you down and make you think of all those insecurities n all the ways you're not good enough and all the "my life would be better if I was this way" thoughts. I'm not sure if i'm really not happy with life or if things that just remind me of my unhappiness keep happening because really I do have a lot of good things going for me right now. I don't know what's wrong and at the same time I do, and I have the power to change those things but at the same time I don't,CAUSE YOU SEE,

I was once classified under chickenshit..but now im the kurang ajar punyer pompuan!WUAHAHAHHHA.

TING TONGG..assignments are killing me.So ppl,unless I ajak'ed you out for a lepaking session,dont call me out aight.AND PLEASEE,PLEASE PLEASEE DONT MAKE PLANS WITHOUT ASKING ME.I REALLY WILL GET PISSED IF YOU BUG ME EVENTHO I'VE WARNED YA'AL ABOUT MY ASSIGNMENTS.Busy and..

TERAMAT BUSY

I'm writing this to kill my time, and if you don't like it, well, come to the realization that this is my blog and not yours.Tee-Hee! :)

not much to tell..

tadaaa.Im finally back to blogging.Now onwards,my post wont be as frequent as before.Internet connection in my campus,TERUKK.

And I misssss all of my 'non-kl'ian' friends :) back in Ipoh fer a week,anddddd I dont want to lepak.You nak lepak,you datang ke rumah I .I just want to sleeeeep and eat during this one week break.

My current emotional status?

BLURBENGAPCERIA

BLUR - cause it's my nature.

BENGAP - cause I'm feeling lost and I dont know a thing bout my assignments. *screwwwwwwww it*

CERIA - IM BACK HOME and EVERYTHING IS PERFECT, THE WAY I WANTED IT TO BE FOR SO LONG :)

gayee quoted : i absolutely <33 my life.that's basically it.

RANDOM:edited pictures.

Some of the pictures that I've edited.

The original.

The edited.





The original.


The edited.





The original.


The edited.


More pictures will be uploaded soon :)

hari modification rambut.

Lepak'ed with Preeta at her rumah and teman'ed her to saloon to re'modify her hair today :)

The lady clipped Preeta's hair mengikut style Trojan :P

She chosed Light Brown and Bright Red for her highlights.

At this point,Im already getting jealous of her new hair colour :S

TADAAAA.It's the funky Preeta :P

p/s: i like her hair colour :D darn COOL siot! By the way.. Er,I screwed up my fringe :( So im not gona take any pic of myself till it grows back!

Merah and Sepet :(